"What is Your Name?" was originally a part of the School of the Ox, Part 2. Below is the an audio for listening and the course material that was included in the School of the Ox Pt. 2. Listen Here For further study (questions, answers, scripture, personal application and prayer): Click Here

Listen Here Most of us are pretty conscious of our body. Most of us are pretty conscious of our soul, mind, will, and emotions. We could say, "I really like to think". Or "I'm really a willful person". Or we can say "I'm really emotional about certain things". So how many of us can say that we're really conscious of our spirit? Today's spiritual exercise is an exercise to help you get in touch with probably the most important part of yourself, your Spirit Man.

Richard Kinney speaks on Destiny. Destiny is a word we have all heard but very few of us know what it is or how to access it. This talk will also help you regain your first love with Jesus and the Father. Listen Here

Richard Kinney talks on some of the ways to become more effective in prayer and helps you to let go of some of the ways that have shown themselves to not be effective. Listen here to the teaching.

Run with Chariots Women’s Retreat The Father’s House in Conyers, GA 10-30-23 Video Video of Nancy Moelk Teaching at Women's Retreat Audio File of Dr. Nancy Moelk Steps to Living out of Heaven 1. Make friendship with God your highest priority. 2. Pursue hearing God’s voice. Spend time and effort learning this. 3. Move from asking to declaring becoming a Co-creator with Christ. 4. Governance: sit and rest till he makes your enemy your footstool “Faith is visual. God made your imagination so you can see things you’ve never seen or experienced before! Attach faith to your imagination.”- Wendy Backlund The Power of your Imagination · Co-creation with Christ is not optional but an essential part of our mission and nature. · God imagined everything and then he made it. (Genesis 1) · God imagined you before the foundation of the world (Eph. 1) · You have the mind of Christ. (1 Corinthians 2:16) · You are a co-creator with Christ. (1 Corinthians 3:9) · Your imagination is a powerful force inside of you. It helps develop faith. (Hebrews 11:1) · Imagination is a bridge between the natural and supernatural worlds. That is why we must become like little children: dare to imagine the impossible. (Matthew 18) · Re-write your history including the presence of God by using your imagination. David constantly uses his imagination to imagine God in his circumstances and even in his past. (Psalm 139: 13-14) I pray you will be promoted by everything you receive from this website and that it will launch you into more and more of a life that constantly brings heaven to earth everywhere you go. Upgrade your relationship with God from a walk to a journey, from a journey to an adventure, from an adventure to a multi-dimensional epic! God wants to show you a whole new world. He wants to take you from wonder to wonder giving you a fantastic point of view. Say yes to this invitation. A Prophetic Word for the Women’s Retreat from the Holy Spirit “My thoughts are not your thoughts, and my ways are not your ways. I don’t set the bar too high for you, my child. It is always reasonable. I love to watch you expand and grow and reach up higher than you ever have before. I delight in any progress, and I forgive, and am very compassionate about every fall or failure. You truly are the Apple of my eye. I delight in you.” At this point, I could feel the Holy Spirit smiling and chuckling contentedly. Clearing a Path for God Encounters Calm your mind by focusing on God’s breath in you. Ignore your random thoughts. Be still and know he is God. Affirm your imagination. “Open the eyes of my heart, God, to gaze on you and to see what is going on in heaven. I choose to imagine God’s reality.” Practice psalm 23. Live out in your imagination each picture of Psalm 23. See the shepherd. Let him lead you. Allow yourself to drink from his water and lie down next to him in green pastures, etc. Learn to go into courts of heaven to begin to take hold of everything Jesus bought for you with his blood. See list of resources for books about this. Move into a manifestation of your inheritance now, in this life. Levels of Prayer Every level of prayer is important to God. He longs for any kind of interaction with you. When you focus on him, he is glad to engage with you in whatever form and at whatever level you are capable of doing it. Intercession is based on need. We come to God asking. Warfare is based on the struggle to prevail. Governance is based on position and authority. Here are some Psalms about governance: 21, 45, and 110. Because we are “in Christ”, whatever is spoken of him as King, Priest and Prophet, also applies to us. Accept it. Grasp it. Make it your identity. Governance results in rest and is based on trust. Unbelief blocks us from receiving the promise (see Hebrews chapter 3 & 4). We need the word of God to set us free from living out of our own soul’s power and into the power provided in our spirit by oneness with Christ. (Hebrews 4:12) Don’t be afraid of angels. They are wind and fire, which are elements of the Holy Spirit. The goal of angels and all of heaven’s population is to bring you into more and more intimacy with Christ. They also want you to grow in the Father’s love and the passion of the Holy Spirit. Faith Faith focuses on the final outcome. Before Jesus did something, he first saw it first, imagined it by looking at what the Father was doing. (John 5:19-20) Faith uses the imagination as a vehicle of presenting “the evidence of things hoped for.” (Hebrews 11:1) The faith you have, and use is a gift from God. (Eph. 2:8) You can’t muster it up on your own. Ask for his help in using what he has given you. Declarations to Move you Towards Seeing God Face to Face 1. The Lord is my shepherd. I am his sheep and I hear his voice. The shepherd likes to speak with me. 2. I can hear Gods voice.. It is easy for me to discern God‘s voice. 3. Jesus is my best friend. I am the friend that Jesus always wanted. 4. I enjoy having conversations with God. Like a father to his child, God enjoys sharing his heart with me. 5. Any barriers between me and God have been removed and we can talk freely with one another. 6. Heavenly Love, I can see your face. I can hear your voice. For your voice is sweet and your face is lovely. 7. You’re helping me to catch the little foxes that are trying to ruin my relationship with you. 8. You love to be with me. 9. You find me fascinating and beautiful. 10. I have your constant attention, affection, and approval. Courts of Heaven Prayer for a Loved One Inspired by Receiving Generational Blessings from the Courts of Heaven, by Robert Henderson with Adam Henderson, Chapter 5 (Use this outline as a template and tailor this to the individual.) Repent Lord, I bring this person before your courts. As I stand here, I repent on his/her behalf for his failure in life as a father, or husband, or whatever function, this person should be serving. I ask for your blood to speak for him. I also repent for any lie he has believed about himself. I ask these lies would be undone. I ask before your courts that for every untruth he is believing, he would be forgiven, in Jesus name. Break curses Lord. I repent for every evil word I have said against this person. I ask that I might be forgiven, and these words might be annulled. I ask that these words would be dismissed and not allowed as evidence against this person in your courts. Lord, I love this person. I ask that this might be recorded in the courts. Let him go free from all the negative things I (or anyone else) have spoken against him in Jesus name. Declare their destiny Lord, as I stand in your courts, I declare that this person is ordained by you to have a deep loving personal connection with you. To live a healthy and abundant life. To advance your kingdom, to represent the love of Christ, and to be a conqueror. They are meant to be head and not the tail. I declare that his feet are beautiful and glorious as he runs, with you and your salvation. I ask based on this prophetic word, that you will cause this person‘s destiny and purpose to be restored. Break Demonic Power I rebuke now in Jesus’ name whatever spirit is afflicting this person. I declare you have no power against this person. I say your Rights are revoked and you are removed right now in Jesus’ name! Take a Scripture and Make it your Own. Live it. One thing I ask from the LORD, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. My personal version: Psalm 27:4 The thing that I am most passionate about, and that I want to pursue with all my heart on a daily basis. That I would be constantly aware of walking in the dimension of the kingdom that lives within me I want to be overwhelmed and consumed by the essence of God‘s presence and personality I want to keep knowing him infinitely more and more and everything about him. I want to be in a constant learning and knowing process and keep discovering more and more, the wonders of who he is and how beautiful he is. I want to see him in a tactile way, in greater in greater measure. The holy spirit is the passion of God, and he dwells in me. Make this your daily prayer and God will meet your passion with his. PDF File of Prayer for a Loved One PDF File of Notes

Five Signs you Don't Feel the Love and Approval of God Audio Teaching (20 minutes) https://static.wixstatic.com/mp3/fd53d6_bf12fffb24db4a498486fc9e69ac3729.mp3 Audio Exercise (40 minutes) https://static.wixstatic.com/mp3/fd53d6_ea9defdda0734c239d342247309a9369.mp3 From birth all of us are created with a need for love and approval. As children we are able to take in the love and approval of our parents and that is actually healthy and helpful but as you know on earth it is a rather imperfect go around. Some people get a little and some of us get a lot. I like to think of us as eating and being nourished by love and approval. As adults, however, we are no longer able to eat human love and approval. It doesn’t work for us. And because the devil knows that we need it in order to be strong and to represent God well, he has made most of us ashamed about our need for love and approval. So you have gone to different people, or your work, or some accomplishment or a physical trait to get love and approval and you have found it empty. And many times there is a scar tissue built up from our quest from what we are designed to have because we look in the wrong place. The devil has gone way out of his way to get you to actually have shame in this area. So many people do. I not saying all of you do but it wouldn’t surprise me if some of you do. Examples of how human love and approval doesn’t work. How many popular rock bands and famous people who are known and adored by masses often have personal lives characterized by drugs or alcohol, broken relationships and unhappiness. Here are five symptoms that we don’t feel the love and approval/appreciation of God: 1. We will feel empty. 2. We will be in pain emotionally, possibility physically. 3. We will, because of our pain, feel a need to call attention to ourselves. (big toe example) 4. We will be overly busy (sign of emptiness). 5. We will be fragile (easy to be offended, to be anger, easy to hurt, despondent, check out of life). I want to talk to you for a moment about ego. Ego has a bad rap in mind of many people’s minds. Christian circles. Ego is simply the healthy structure of the personality. The bones that the personality hangs on. In order to bear the weight or God and pre4snece of God you need a strong healthy ego. Egotism is sick ego. So, if we have egotism, It is all about us. All self-focus. Many of the most egotistical people will tell you they are pond scum and don’t deserve to live. They are just waiting to be dismissed and rejected. You don’t need to be in love with yourself to be an egotist. All you need to be is overly self-focused. The devil knows we need love and approval and works against it in us. Sometimes we pretend we don’t need it but we miss it. Fortunately, there are a lot of ways to get back in touch with this love and approval that we so desperately need. God showed us this exercise to help people to get in touch with God’s love and approval and it works very well. There are two perspectives that we always have the love and approval of God in. The first one is from the perspective is one that He created us before we came out of our mother’s womb. He put in us things that please Him and things that He loves. The first thing would be Himself. There is a part of Him in us, the spirit man. And He loves and enjoys Himself. He approves of himself. Next there are gifts and callings. All of you are unique here. All of you have some special gifts, callings and abilities that God delights in and He always have. The Bible says He is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. In Him there is no change or shadow of turning. So, His love for us is not a light switch. It does not hinge on our behavior. It is not the tail wagging the dog. It’s not like God’s got a little switch, “I approve of you, I love you. I don’t approve of you. I don’t love you. I approve of you, I love you, I don’t approve of you, I don’t love you.” From this perspective of what He loves in us-- I am not saying He is not aware of our shortcomings and sins. I am just saying He is not overcome by them. If some of you are counselors, you have heard some pretty gory things from people. Do you hate those people? If you do this for a living, basically the fact that the person has problems doesn’t offend you particularly. And you are moving on toward their healing. I am not saying you aren’t aware of them. But I find that what’s good about people if you bring that forward pushes out what’s bad about people. Where no amount of harping about how bad they are ever seems to heal anything. So, we deal with the bad in people, but counseling needs to hold more tightly to what God did right in you, to what God put in you already that can’t actually be destroyed regardless of these experiences you have had. And we find this again and again. And I’ve had people who have been cocaine addicts, who have done all sorts of reprehensible sins, who have been really, really lost. And yet within a year or so you find this shining, strong individual who really, while though they aren’t perfect, are free of their presenting problems and living a life that is God-pleasing and useful to others. Ask yourself, “If you were a perfect God, would you create crappy people? I was a caterer for twenty years and I like to cook. I am good at it. It’s fun for me. It is one of the ways I express love to my family and friends. If when I cook, things go wrong everyone stays out of the kitchen because there are pots and pans are flying around and dark words are spoken. I hate making crappy food. Well I’m not perfect, but God is. So the idea that he is going to make crappy, loser type people, is really not on the possibility list. So from the perspective of how He created you, He loves and approves of you. Access it today. A way, not only way. Listen to the exercise that will help you to experience this here . Get father’s love gives a sense of his love and approval. Wouldn’t think much of a parent who is on again off again towards their child. I hate you, I don’t approve of you. You don’t endorse everything they do. There is a constancy to your love and of your vision of the child as important, valuable, necessary. Even though you are aware of their faults, you are aware of their positives even when they are being rotten. At night you walk into their room and look at them, even after a day where they misbehaved, and you look upon them with deep love. There is another perspective I want to tell you about. God lives in eternity he doesn’t live in time. I want to give you a little teaching on that. I want you to imagine a little block on the floor. Most of here on earth believe that time and gravity are constants and we can depend on them unfailingly to be with them. So we can fly to India we know we will be in a different time zone but there is still time and we don’t expect the pen to fly out of our pocket. On the other hand, if you go up in a space shuttle, I don’t really know how many miles, but it’s not too many miles. Until your pen starts floating around. And you start floating around. In heaven there is no time and you can’t have time and eternity simultaneously because the nature of eternity is no time. So God sees you (I am addressing this to saved Christians. I am not going to try to take a bigger bite than that) from that perspective He sees you (have to use things that don’t totally work but our perspective requires we have to have a sense of time) Have you ever gone to a conference or a prayer time coming home with your face shining and your heart all cleaned up feeling lighter and stronger. How do you think you will feel after you have been in heaven for 10,000 years? You think you might clean up a bit better? Do you think you will look better and act better? From that perspective God sees you. Let’s do a little exercise. Pretend there is a block on the floor a little kid ABC block. And you are a little ant. This is how many of us perceive time. We start our life on the edge of the block and we walk forward midlife is in the middle of the block and at the end of the block you fall off the block bye bye and you are dead. God we are going to perceive as a great big dome over the block. But actually he is a never ending dome and He perceives you as he approved of you created you in the beginning, and he sees you as you are in the moment and not that he isn’t aware of your faults and then he also sees you as you will be in the future into 10,000 years. Heaven is an interesting fascinating fun place where there is responsibility and different possibility that unfold forever and ever and ever. I am easily bored and look forward to the heaven. It is exciting and beyond what we can imagine in the way of joy and ecstasy. Not a boring sermon or church picnic! This exercise will break down scar tissue and walls barriers you have put up to God’s love and approval. Satan has conned you into. Shame a scary, driving force. It is a toxic force in people that hurts them terribly and it is difficult to help them let it go. But this will take down some of that shame. So from this perspective, He sees you and loves and approves of you. He sees you from these two perspectives at the same time. In the exercise we will teach you, we will help you break down some of the scar tissue and walls that have been put up in you and that Satan has conned you into. We are going to tear down these walls together. It reminds me of the children of Israel going through the Red Sea and the sea is piled up on either side and the walls are quivering ready to crash down. The sea is symbolic of God’s massive love and approval for you from the two perspectives we have discussed. When we connect with this love and approval, it will change us and fill us with energy and joy to become the truly impactful Christians that we were created to be. An Excerpt from a Class on the Love and Approval of God by Richard Kinney To hear this free class in its entirely and to listen to a small group of people being brought through the exercise go to http://firehouseministries.com/product/love-and-approval/ Ask God to show you from these two perspectives on how he sees you from these two perspectives. And then not just see it but begin to feel it. If you have scar tissue around your emotions this will be more difficult. But don’t give up. You will want to continue to add to these pictures that God shows you of how he approves and loves you. We are not looking for a rendition of all the bad things about you. You are not hearing from God if that is what you are focusing on. We want to keep advancing little by little in seeing more and feeling more of how God sees us and feels about us. Experiencing his love and approval is worth the time to do this on a regular basis.

by Dr. Nancy Moelk "But in the depths of my heart I truly know That you have become my Shield; You take me and surround me with yourself." Psalm 3:3a from The Psalms, Poetry on Fire by Dr. Brian Simmons Listen here (4 min.) or read below. Audio Link There is a medicinal quality to hanging out with God. I can only compare it to having a shower on the inside where you just stand there and let the water hit you and wash away whatever seen or unseen things that have been making you dirty and stinky. Learning to be still with Him was such a struggle for me but now that I can do it most of the time (or rather calm myself to recognize His presence is already there), it is one of my most important times of the day and night. "Take the good gracious God just as he is, as plain as a common poultice, and lay him to your sick self, just as you are. Or if I may put it another way, lift up your sick self, just as you are, and let your desire reach out to touch the good, gracious God, just as he is, for to touch him is eternal health."[i] I want to share with you little exercise I learned in my journey to be with God in the inner place of stillness. This one came from the book The Cloud of Unknowing and the Book of Privy Counsel by some unknown person who was trying to help others to connect with the Lord Jesus. First, I must explain to you what this man meant by a "cloud of unknowing." He states that we can never be with God with our minds but can only relate to him by reaching up with our hearts and loving on Him. So, the "cloud of unknowing" has to do with letting go of trying to intellectually know God in that moment and instead seeking to love Him as He is with yourself, just as you are. To get there you ask God to help you have a cloud of forgetfulness between you and all your problems and life responsibilities. For a little time, you are asking for help to let go of the world and its offerings of both pain and fun to hang out with your Creator. Here is the exercise. Sit still in a quiet place and say, "Lord, let there be a cloud of forgetfulness below me. I want to forget everything and everyone for these moments except for You. And let there be a cloud of unknowing above me. I want to reach up with my heart and love on You." Wait on God here to come and assist you. Try this for five or ten minutes to start. You may have a low ability at first to sit still or to be with someone so intensely (or both). I had to run away quite often when I first felt God's presence. It was too much for my underdeveloped relational capacity. Or your mind, like a naughty puppy, may try to get your attention. Just tell your naughty puppy “Not now.”[1] As we persist in choosing to focus on the Kingdom of Heaven within, on Christ in us, our capacity to entangle with Him will continue to develop and expand into eternity. Our goal is union. Here is another possible way of you being with Him. Listen to the song “Endless Love” sung by Lionel Richie and Diana Ross. Imagine that God is singing that to you and you are singing it to Him. You are enmeshed with Him already in an “endless love.” May you awaken more and more into that reality! [1] I hear J.P. Abraham give a talk on meditation and he referred to the mind as a “naughty puppy.” I like that way of addressing our mind because it removes any self-condemnation at being distractable. Puppies need training, not scolding. [i] The Cloud of Unknowing and The Book of Privy Counsel by Anonymous p. 175 [Written around 1375] The Cloud of Unknowing and The Book of Privy Counsel by Anonymous p. 175 [Written around 1375] This work is available for free on sites such as this: Cloud of Unknowing - Christian Classics Ethereal Library* For another resource to help you feel His presence look into this helpful booklet: Share Immanuel, The Healing Lifetyle. http://www.lifemodel.org/product.php?type=book&rn=86 *My quoting of a saint or any other source does not represent an endorsement of the totality of their work but rather just a small gem of truth I came across in reading their books.]

By Dr. Nancy Moelk “Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:11 Listen here or read below. Audio File Rushing and frantic thoughts whirl through our brains trying to catch some elusive solution to life. Our minds resemble the little hamster running on his wheel. Activity that wears you out but gets you nowhere. Ours is an age of information that bombards us continually. Many people live in their heads and are strangers to the deep places of the heart. Constant noisy distractions surround us and protect us from being alone with self. I mentor people regularly and help them to connect with their hearts as well as with God and others. In my own journey towards inner stillness, I used to sit alone in silence at the Monastery of the Holy Spirit near where I used to live. The priests display the communion elements on the altar at all times. I was trying to get out of my head and connect with my heart and meet God there. Here is the little exercise I used to help myself do that. I would put my hand on my upper abdomen and sit still in silence. I would focus on where my hand lay and say, "I just want to be with you, Lord Jesus, right now. I know you live in me, and I want to feel your presence and concentrate on it alone." Then I would wait on Him and try to ignore every thought running though my mind demanding my attention. Often, I would stay there an hour or two and once I stayed four hours. One day a funny drama came to me in a vision. I was in a little speedboat. Behind me in the boat were two other parts of me. Holding the rudder was my spirit man, and sitting behind me was my mind. My mind was rudely shouting directions and being overall very bossy. Suddenly my spirit grabbed my mind and threw her overboard into the water. My mind sputtered but continued to loudly complain, boss and direct. "What are you doing? You need me! You can't throw me out!". To which my spirit replied, "You are no longer in charge, and you will not be allowed a place in the boat until you calm down and behave!" I gradually made progress in finding that inner stillness which is, of course, the inner sanctuary inside of us where we meet with God. Another time I will share about some of the things that happen when we meet with Him. "Inner stillness is one of the characteristic signs of humility. It manifests itself in the absence of fear amid life's circumstances, in confidence in the divine providence which protects one from every evil: “A humble man is never rushed, hasty, or agitated, never has any hot or volatile thoughts, but at all times remains calm. Even if heaven were to fall and cleave to the earth, the humble man would not be dismayed. for the humble man is always at rest, because there is nothing which can agitate or shake his mind. Just as no one can frighten a mountain, so the mind of a humble man cannot be frightened.” *The Spiritual World of Issac the Syrian by Hilarion Alfeyev pp. 119-120. *My quoting of a saint or any other source does not represent an endorsement of the totality of their work but rather just a gem of truth I came across in reading their book. *My quoting of a saint or any other source does not represent an endorsement of the totality of their work but rather just a gem of truth I came across in reading their bo

Ten Sure Ways to Ruin Your Children by Dr. Nancy Moelk I have been helping people with parenting for over 30 years. Much of what I have to offer is from all the mistakes I made with my own four children. Here is what I consider the top ten ways to ruin your children. We should all know by now that we have made mistakes. Those of us who can’t admit it are to be pitied. So see if you can find a couple things on this list that you haven’t done and pat yourself on the back! 1. Insist on making everything about you and not them. 2. Try to control how they feel and what they think. 3. Be more concerned about your image as a mom than their development when they make mistakes. 4. Try to keep them from the consequences of their choices because it is too painful to watch. 5. Micromanage their lives, living through their successes and failures. 6. Never really be present to them in the moment. Instead, be lost in your own head or drama. 7. When they share how they feel, try to fix it instead of just listening. 8. Compare them to yourself or others. 9. Criticize more than you praise. Focus on the negative. 10. Make sure they can’t win no matter what they say or do. Correct, contradict and one-up everything. Forget about where they have to go to school, how much TV they watch, whether they have extra-curricular activities or the latest fashion. All those things you think matter don’t have much impact on them. Who you are and whether you have the ability to connect to them, respect them and love them as a person in their own right separate from you will go further to aid their emotional health and development than anything else. And saying you are sorry once in a while is helpful, too. The other vital element in any family system is for you to be willing to work on your junk. I mean the junk you carry from all your childhood conflicts. The junk of your resentment, bitterness, resignation and negativity. The junk of your injuries where you longed for love, and no one showed up. Engaging God to help you clean up the messy yard of your soul will do more for your kids than everything else combined. And you won’t have to teach it. This is something they will catch automatically by your being a role model.

Lesson 3: School of the Man Who Opposes Us: The Enemy or Ourselves, the World or God? by Richard Kinney Click here to listen to the teaching. How can opposition be an opportunity for us and how does it show if our boat of life has holes in it? It can provide a test to show where we are weak and needing repair. When we are being opposed, there are four possible sources of that opposition: ourselves, the enemy, God or the world. What are some reasons why the enemy is able to oppose us? What can our reactions to opposition show about our hearts? How can God use opposition to point out idols in our life and help overturn them? How does he use it to develop our character? These are some of the insights Richard Kinney discusses in this lesson.

How Can a Christian Maturely Express Anger? By Dr. Nancy Moelk Audio How do I handle angry feelings in life? Are they always a sin? Are they ever helpful or effective? What if I feel guilty or distressed when I express any anger? Or what if I “loose it” and go into rages that are destructive to myself and those around me? How about if I don’t seem to have any anger and can’t even identify any times when I express it? These are some of the questions we want to answer here. First, if we believe in God and that we are made in His image, we know He lives in us and we have access to His nature. So what kind of anger does God portray?[1] What kinds of things made God angry in the Old Testament? And Jesus in the New Testament. (This does not negate His mercy and forgiveness but, instead, accentuates forgiveness and resolution as a process and not a mental gym trick). Here is a short list: 1. When those who were supposed to love Him, betrayed Him and forgot Him. 2. When He offered Himself in relationship and was rejected. 3. When people pretended to be for Him but were only interested in using Him. 4. When religious people acted like the most important thing in life was image and performance while neglecting a real heart connection and truth in relationship. 5. When people pretended to be serving others but were in fact using them and manipulating them. Even though God does forgive those who want to be reconciled to Him, He still showed us a model of having a reaction to suffering loss and injury in relationship where He made Himself vulnerable. He hoped for connection and fellowship and instead was rejected and abused. Jesus suffered as part of being human and, at times, He was angry. We need to remember He was fully God and fully man and He is not asking us to no longer be human! Let’s go through some of the different scenarios of anger or lack of anger and try to move forward in a mature expression and resolution of it. It is a process to grow up and learning to mature in our expression of anger is just another skill we must practice and perfect. What if you don’t seem to have any anger? Well, since we can’t find any culture or humans on the planet who don’t recognize anger, then you will want to open yourself to the possibility that you are pushing your anger away and it is affecting you in hidden ways such as physical illness, bitterness, resentment, depression or even a negative world view. A very cold person who is rather withdrawn is, in truth, a very angry person! Over the years, I have seen some people healed of physical problems by simply allowing the anger that they carry in their body to have an emotional expression (that doesn’t do injury to themselves or others) and resolution instead of keeping it stored in their bodies. If this is our problem, we humble ourselves to be teachable and open to facing the truth of what is inside of us instead of pretending to be something we are not. Wearing a mask that disguises our true emotions may work around people but God knows what is going on deep inside of us—even if we don’t. God loves us and God loves truth. He sees the real things inside of us. He sees the beauty of us as His creation and beloved one and He focuses on all that is good. When He looks at anything unhealthy or harmful in us, it looks like what we find in baby diapers when the child needs a diaper change. I had four children and changed thousands of diapers—never once did I confuse the precious child with what was in the diaper! I have ministered to people at times who were so lacking in the establishment of themselves as a human being and the “rights” thereof, that they truly believed it was hopeless for them to express any of their feelings or preferences. The view of self they carried was as a supporting cast member in the life drama of someone else. This is out of God’s divine order and not pleasing to Him. He enjoys our humanity and our ability to make choices and express ourselves. He enjoyed watching Adam name the animals, He enjoyed David’s fiery heart full of passion (see the Psalms). He is not asking us to forfeit authenticity for some restrained pretense of what we see as a “holy life”. He wants you to be fully who you are and to come into union with who He fully is. You will be transformed, of course, but this results from your becoming totally honest with Him and allowing Him to touch every area of your soul. What if you feel your anger but then are ashamed of it and have guilt about any expression of it? Some of us were raised to believe that any expression of anger is sinful—that keeps us stuck with no way of getting rid of anger. Imagining how we “should” be doesn’t automatically create that scenario in us. Resolving anger is a process that begins with facing we are hurt or unhappy and therefore angry about it. If you were God, would you rather someone be honest with you about their unpleasant feelings or would you rather them be fake and phony around you, pretending everything is “OK”? I think the verse, “Peace, peace, where there is no peace” [2]would describe that. If this is our situation, then let’s try a practical solution. The goal is to resolve our anger. It looks like one part of us is angry, but another part is not comfortable with having anger. We are at war with ourselves—we have a divided mind and heart[3]. Each part must be willing to consider the perspective of the other side. Maybe we don’t think we have the right to object and be unhappy with others or our situation because we may lose love and approval. Or we are afraid our anger will cause everyone to abandon or reject us. These are frightening prospects and must be properly heard and addressed. Finding security in God’s love and seeing ourselves as loved by Him no matter how we behave can calm these fears.[4] On the other hand, any life losses create grief in us and resolving grief must always involve a facing of hurts which will lead us through a brief time of being angry before moving on to resolution and forgiveness. We need to allow the angry part of us to have its say[5] without judging or condemning ourselves for it. Once that part of us is heard, we can begin to grieve the loss and allow the provision of Christ which is already within you to flood that needy area.[6]. Allowing ourselves to be angry about a loss moves us towards resolution and forgiveness. Trying to just not be angry because that is not “holy” will simply keep us stuck longer and at an impasse with ourselves. Loving and accepting ourselves right where we are opens the door for change in our lives—that is why God decided to love us with no conditions. It makes us safe enough to consider trying another way. What if you are often angry and even destructive in your expression of it? People who are angry most of the time generally see the people and circumstances of their life as the source of their anger. They believe that if other people behaved differently or that if their life situation could just change, they would be happy and their anger would resolve itself. Raging about this and that, they beat on their environment and insist that everyone and everything owes them a debt and just won’t pay it. Because we aren’t in charge of everyone and everything, this can keep us stuck in anger forever. Studies have proven that simply raging and venting doesn’t resolve anger but makes us even angrier. Identifying the real source of our anger, which is often fear and wounding will bring us into a new level of truth about ourselves and our lives. From the vantage point of being honest about where our hearts are at and looking for a change in ourselves, we can do something about our unhappiness instead of waiting for a change in the outside environment to be the solution (which is probably not going to happen, anyway). For someone who can’t seem to control their anger, recognizing that the real problem is inside rather than the fault of others or life situations is a first step towards resolution. The first stage of grief is coming out of denial about a loss. Seeing past the present-day circumstances and identifying themes of hurts and losses will lead us to look at our history and how we may be repeating dramas.[7] What if you are depressed, anxious or have an extremely negative world view? This can be anger turned inward. One thing we do, if we feel we are not allowed to be angry, is to aim it at ourselves. I have worked with people who were very depressed or having anxiety attacks. One thing that was characteristic of most of them was that they never seemed to have bouts of simple, genuine anger at life events! Their reaction to losses was minimal as far as any overt expression was concerned. But on deeper inspection, they had hidden their anger from themselves and now the focus of all their attention was on their “condition” of depression or anxiety. Once we determined they were playing a little game of distraction with themselves to avoid admitting anger, they began to give themselves permission to be angry and gradually their depression and anxiety went away.[8] These scenarios are general, and each person’s resolution of anger and grieving process will look a bit different. Just like a child learning to walk, we must practice and master the skill of expressing our anger in a mature and effective way that leads to full resolution. Years ago, I read a book called How to Really Love Your Teenager by Dr. Ross Campbell. In it he had what was called an “anger ladder” which described ways of expressing anger from the very worst to the very best.[9] Ironically, the very bottom of the list, below shouting and breaking things, was being passive about anger. That is where you pretend you are not angry but take it out in covert ways. Lying about our anger makes sure that the “sun goes down on it” and that we can never get it resolved.[10] However, you respond to life losses and however you express or don’t express your anger, there is always room to grow and develop and be healthier. Instead of locking ourselves into a static picture of self with unrealistic expectations, we will do better to follow God’s lead. He takes people as they are, loves them in that place and then sets about teaching and guiding them into a full development of all that is good about them and a gradual adjustment to unhealthy perspectives and behaviors that block them from the very best they can be. God’s positive and practical approach to us, filled with compassion and patience, is a good role model for us in how we speak to ourselves and how we treat ourselves. Let’s be deliberate about our status as “little children” who get to make mistakes, not know everything, and need help from our parent on a regular basis”. From this attitude, we will find ourselves set up for success in receiving abundant help and kindness from our Father in Heaven. [1] For a fuller treatment of God’s anger as demonstrated in the grieving process, see Good Grief: Revised, Updated and Expanded by Nancy Moelk [2] See Jeremiah 6:14 and 8:11 as well as Ezekiel 13:10. [3] See James 1:7-8 concerning the problem of being double minded and how that leaves us unstable. [4] For an excellent exercise on receiving God’s love and approval for you, go to Love and Approval of God by Richard Kinney [5] This is part of “confession” and when done without injuring ourselves and others is part of the road to true “holiness”. [6] An exercise to appropriate the presence of Christ for each and every hurt can be found in the Gratitude and Stepping into Freedom from Pain post on our website. [7] For a fuller treatment of this, see the booklet Unshackled From Your Past in the Booklet section of our website. [8] See the booklet by Nancy Moelk Anxiety Booklet at firehouseministries.com. [9] Click here for a link to Anger Ladder Dr. Ross Campbell also wrote a book How to Really Love Your Angry Teen and How to Really Love Your Angry Child. [10] Ephesians 4:26.

After a very long time in Christian service with many ups and downs, we have finally been shown a much better understanding of how spiritual growth works. We know the foundation of all growth is based on our embracing the union that exists between us and Jesus Christ, since we are “in Him” and He is “in us.” We are called to develop in four areas in a somewhat balanced and equal way or we will be left in shallowness at best and become unstable at worst. If we learn to cooperate and grow intentionally in each area, He will be able to more quickly and completely release us into safe, powerful, intelligent and joyful service and growth. These four areas of growth are based on the four faces of God as demonstrated by the wonderful but mysterious creatures that surround His throne as recorded in Revelations 4. Each represent part of His nature and because we are made in His image, we have all the potential inside to be developed and come into maturity in each of these areas. · Area #1: The Man involves our ability to give and receive love. Our creativity, our love for the arts, our compassion and empathy. We must grow in the Man. This involves our emotional health and heart strength. And this will allow us to contain and use safely the power and authority of the Lion. · Area #2: The Lion involves our ability to govern and take charge. To become co-creators with God. To participate in the restoration of all things. We must grow in the courage and boldness of the Lion to convincingly communicate the things revealed to us through prophecy and heavenly visions that we find in the Eagle. The authority we obtain in the Lion, gives us power to be a credible witness and to have impact in every area of life. To rise into the courts of heaven and influence what happens on earth. · Area #3: The Eagle involves all things supernatural. In order to move forward in life as a representative of God and His agenda we must learn to hear from Him and be open to His direction and revelation through dreams and visions and direct encounter with Him. We are meant to do greater works than Jesus did! · Area #4: The Ox involves the ability to rest and prosper in submission to our God and to be willing to sacrifice. In order to be strong and steady enough to move forward irresistibly in what we are shown through the Eagle, we must develop the love and submission of the Ox and the incredible strength that comes with that. This School with God’s help, will help you become the joyful and powerful person that God has made you to be. Expect divine appointments and encounters as you study this school.